Letting the Door Hit My Ass
I started this blog to combat burn-out. I missed the writing I had done before becoming an attorney (really before going to law school). I figured that ranting would give me the outlet I needed to vent my frustration and to turn my creativity back on.
I was quickly at a loss for appropriate posts, strangely enough. There were plenty moments of absurdity to recount, but I did not want to post anything that might identify myself or violate any privileges. My one lone post, posted a week or so after the event, with anything specific about it scraped away, was all I managed.
I did use my page to check daily the links I have listed. What I have read on those pages has given me some inspiration and enjoyment.
But nothing has helped get my mind back in the game the way I needed. I am leaving the public defender's office in the next few weeks. Burn-out has been a major factor. I have been doing this for a few years and have tried several felony cases, but I need to get out. It is not that I no longer care; I have been drained by caring.
I have also been drained by the caseload. No surprise there in this field. But I feel I can no longer tolerate not being able to do the kind of work I know I am capable of because I do not have the time in the day to do it. Even though I know I do a good job for my clients, I cannot live with the constant guilt and stress of feeling I should be doing even more.
The only work I really want to do is be a public defender. The only way I feel I can do it at this point is under conditions that do not exist that are not available.